Friday, May 18, 2007

Lucky Me

Mornings are insane at our house, five kids, three bathrooms, lunches to pack, socks to find, homework to finish(UGH!!!), real and imagined offenses run amuck, you get the picture. Most days I am just relieved and exhausted when the door closes behind the last little chatterbox. They leave and then I go about the business of anxiously waiting for them to come home so I can be pleasant afternoon mom, instead of hurry, hurry, we're going to be late morning mom.

Twice this week something strange has happened. I drop my little sweeties off at school and as I am driving away I am overcome with love and gratitude not only for my children but for my whole life(on one of these mornings I actually CRIED all the way home). This is odd for a few reasons. First, I know I have a great life, but I am not one of those gals who goes around praising the heavens for all my "blessings". I know I am blessed, I am just private, plus any fool can see I have a great family! Second, I was listening to morning radio, which is so not conducive to feelings of sentimental joy. Third, the whole morning ritual doesn't really lend its self to overwhelming love.

So what's the deal? PMS? Menopause? Armageddon? Who cares, right? I am just glad that somewhere inside me is the ability to spontaneously feel gratitude and love. And I hope I am somehow able to pass that ability on to my sweet beautiful children. The world can't have too many grateful loving people, can it?

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